and then blogged about it…
I love two men. I screw two men. I am in a relationship with them both, and they are both aware there is another. That is all they need to know, that is all I let them know. They don’t need to know a name; they don’t need to know anything but that they are not alone in my heart.
They have accepted the situation. Stewart, because his life is too busy for the sort of obligations that are required in a relationship. Paul, because he loves me too much to tell me no. And because my sexual appetite is such that one man has trouble keeping up.
So we exist, two parallel relationships, each running their own course, with no need for intersection or conflict. It works for us, for them, and for me. I don’t expect it to be a long-term situation. I know there is an expiration date on the easy perfection of our lives.
I should have paid more attention, should have looked around and noticed the woman who watched it all. She sat in the background and waited, tried to figure me out. Saw my two relationships, the love between us, and the moment that it all fell apart.
She hates me.
I don’t even know she exists.
She loves them. I love them.
And they love me.
EVERYTHING else hangs in the balance.
“I was, and still am, a dramatic rider. I believe that there’s no point in doing something if you aren’t going to do it with all of your heart.”
Yes this is a dirty girl erotica book. It has everything you would think this type of book would have – lot of sex. Typically that is all I expect from these types of books which is why I don’t read many of them. I like a story with my sex, but this was different. This is the second book I’ve read by Torre and I have yet to be disappointed.
The sex was good; more than I need but I knew there would be going in to this book so I was ok with it. The story was so much more than I thought it would be. It was so different from the typical love triangle that it was hard for me to put the book down and stop reading. Where I thought I would hate the leading lady for her choices I actually really liked her and respected her. I loved that Torre was able to make a character that would have traditionally been seen as a villain actually become this good amazing and lovable person.
“When they ‘grow up’ and getting fucked during halftime is no longer cool but suddenly slutty? They will feel dirty. Used. Ruined. Because they did it for the wrong reasons.”
I love brutal honesty and this book felt so real that parts were uncomfortable (in a good way) to read. It was as if I were invading the persons secret life, somewhere I didn’t belong. You would think that would be the case with all books (as that is essentially what you are doing – interloping on a characters story) but this one does it in a way that makes you really take notice.
“I love her. She knows it. I don’t hide the fact. But I don’t think she knows how much I love her. How much my chest expands to a point of pain when she smiles. How I ache when I leave her, how my hands shake when I finally get to touch her again. She is everything I don’t deserve, and everything I could ever hope to attain”
There was a twist and it was not at all what I thought it would be. I love a good twist but I’m wasn’t too happy with this one. The connection, small world, coincidence, or whatever you want to call it was not to my liking. I don’t want to say much more because I don’t want to ruin it for anyone but I will just say that it would have been better without that connection.
Overall, this was good book and I can wait to read another by this author.